The Path to Sleep with Chronic Illness
It’s 2 AM, and I’ve been trying to sleep for three hours. The pain is high and unrelenting. I’m propped up on the couch right now because I have so many parts of my body that hurt, and I just can’t get situated comfortably in bed. I’ve been up to pee seven times (Thank you Interstitial Cystitis), refilled my water once and changed out my ice pack three times. My current back/neck pain is also requiring a heat wrap that I have to get situated perfectly to provide heat to exactly the right places.
All of these things cause me to reposition in bed (or on the couch), get the sheets and blankets comfy again, and jolts me awake once more right as I am finally dozing off to dream land. The clock keeps ticking and anxiety sets in as I watch it creep up to the next hour and I count backwards, just how much sleep I think I will realistically end up with before I must get up for work or appointments.
At some point, some way, sleep finally comes before the dreaded alarm clock blares the awful wake up tune.
The experience of many chronically ill patients is that family, friends and coworkers wonder why we are dragging in the morning. Our bosses wonder why we call in sick or ask to come in late. And some times, even our doctors scratch their heads as to why we miss our appointment. But there are moments, when it’s 6am and you’re still awake from a horrible night spent with chronic illness, that all you can do is hug your bed and hunker down for the day. Once sleep finally comes, you just want to stay there for as long as possible, because you don’t know when you will get good rest again.
So, the next time you see your friend with chronic illness struggling to get through their day, buy them a coffee, share their work load, or at least throw a smile their way. Smiles go farther than you will ever know.