Posted by: thedianestory | January 7, 2015

Dear Dray

January 5, 2014

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Today I fly home from meeting my nephew for the first time. I was there for the first twelve days of his life, and those are days that I will never forget. I’m so grateful to my brother and sis-in-love for allowing me to share these special times.

Because I will never have a biological child of my own, these first moments of seeing our bloodline carried on and being amazed at the family resemblances has been so special. My first time holding Dray will be a piece in time that I will forever treasure. He looked up at me when I first held him and it was like staring straight into my soul. The love my heart has for this little one is beyond what my words can describe. I’m the most blessed aunty ever and my heart is so full.

I love you little Danny (Dray). I can’t wait to watch you grow, teach you new things, nurture our aunty/nephew relationship and watch the world through your eyes. Most of all I pray that you would become strong and mighty in The Lord. May you come to know him as your Lord and Savior and learn that you can do all things through Him (Christ) who gives you strength.

The countdown has begun for our next visit, little buddy. Aunty Di will see you in 70 days!

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Posted by: thedianestory | January 2, 2015

Happy New Year

January 2, 2015

As I step into 2015 and reflect on last year, I find myself with much joy and hear myself telling others “2014 was literally the best year I’ve had in six years.” And it really was. The end of 2008, brought the heartache of my marriage ending literally in the blink of an eye, with no warning. 2009 was met with being put off on disability for my ongoing illness, which would turn into complete medical disability. It was also met with further health challenges and nearly a month long stay in multiple hospitals, fighting for my life, followed by two more short term stints in the hospital. 2010 continued to be a battle for answers to my health issues and more hospitalizations. 2011 was rung in with my endometriosis flaring and me finding a new doctor, whom I hoped would free me from my years of pain. A very thorough surgery led to significant findings of what was flaring my pain, but unfortunately not a complete answer or cure. 2012-2013 were what I like to call my “maintaining years” as I just floated from one doctor appointment to the next, trying to manage my symptoms since they couldn’t really find answers to fix me. I spent much of those years in bed, literally doing nothing but resting for the most part. But by the beginning of 2014 I finally felt a strength that I hadn’t felt in some time.

It was on a field trip with my girls from the Girl Scout troop I lead that I felt the Lord speak to my heart, that perhaps I may be able to work a few hours somewhere. Four days later I was offered the most amazing job for a company who was more than content to work with me, despite my illness. So at the end of April 2014 I started working 20-30 hours a month. It has been the best thing for my soul. It has given me purpose, interactions with people and a reason to fight just a little harder than I may otherwise. Sure there are still days that I just can’t push through because the pain is too much, or I am just way too exhausted to function for a day and need some extra rest. But working again has brought new joy to my soul and I am so grateful.

Life is not free of its challenges and my health is still not wonderful. I most likely will not ever be able to come off disability and return to full time work. I am still in immense amounts of pain most days, my stomach has flared something awful and I am 100% sure my endometriosis has grown back with a vengeance. The next two months are filled with doctor appointments and I am going to have fight hard to function through my current symptoms…but for the first time in several years, I can feel joy again.

The best gift of all for 2014 arrived on December 23, at 9:42pm when my beautiful, precious, amazing nephew was born:

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Danny Raymond Fisher III (known as Dray)

I became a biological aunty for the first time, and my heart is so full. He is my precious gem – the Jewel of My Heart. The first time he looked up at me was like looking straight into my soul. There are no words for the love that I feel.

So with that monumental ending to 2014, how can I not be ready for 2015? I am praying for health, peace and continued joy. I can hardly wait to see where life leads.

Thanks for sticking with me here at The Diane Story – It’s my goal to put passion and focus back into this blog, and my writing in general for that matter. And maybe just maybe, I will make progress on that goal of mine to publish a book! Stay tuned….

Posted by: thedianestory | December 29, 2014

For What it’s Worth

Because this was my most popular post this year, I’m sharing again. It is still as relevant today as it was then. I’d love for everyone to take a moment and think about their interactions with everyone. Hope you have a great end to 2014. Thanks for staying with me.

The Diane Story

February 21, 2014

It is not often that I will blog post in direct relation to something that has effected me, but for some reason I feel like it’s worth writing some thoughts. While being vague, let me just say that people should really take a step back and think about how their actions might effect others.

I do my best not to allow my illness to become an excuse or copout for me in life. The reality is though – sometimes my illness IS the reason I may not be running 100%. I may miss a meeting, miss a deadline on paperwork or not feel up to a phone call that someone else sees as a top priority.

It is not that I don’t care, or think others should cater to me “just because.” But when members of an organization (people who I thought I counted among my friends)…

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Posted by: thedianestory | November 23, 2014

A Smile Goes a Long Way

November 23, 2014

Last night I was at Walmart and was feeling very sad and emotional, with a tear-stained face. Moments before I learned of the passing of a pre-mature baby; a son of one of my closest friends. I was trying to process the news that I would never meet this precious little one. As I looked up to head down a new aisle another lady in the store caught my eye. She deliberately made eye contact with me and smiled. That was it, and on we both went. My heart felt a bit lighter if only for a split second.

That moment reminded me just how much a simple smile can mean to someone. We never know where that person has been, what journey they are walking and what a simple kind gesture could do for them. It reminded me how we all could make the world a better place if we could look up from our phones once in awhile, take a genuine interest in people, truly connect with people, make eye contact for a change, and smile.

Will you all make an effort to find one person to smile at this week? Or more if you feel up to the challenge. I’d love to hear how a simple smile might brighten your day! Now go…smile away! 😃

Posted by: thedianestory | October 14, 2014

Work Time

October 14, 2014

Recently I started messaging my dad throughout the work day. Sending him selfies of me “working so hard!” I really am working hard – I’m out at my leasing appointments showing properties. But I will shoot a selfie while waiting. Now it’s our joke about how rough a job I have…like this one captioned “just chilling in the woods”:

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Or yesterday’s “take two,” which is when I bug him with my second pic of the day:

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It’s a rough life – but somebody’s got to love it. 🙂

Posted by: thedianestory | October 8, 2014

Brightness from Brazil!

October 8, 2014

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My mom’s childhood friend is a missionary in Brazil. Naturally she is now my friend, too! She happens to be in the states for a few weeks, and mom and I got to go see her on Sunday!

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She is such a dear friend. A constant prayer partner. Someone I love and respect, probably more than she knows. Fellowshipping with her and mom on Sunday was like water to refresh my soul.

It made me realize just how much I miss having a church family/small group to “do life” with. Those people who share your faith and with whom the Spirit of The Lord radiates through. I loved feeling that on Sunday during our time visiting.

I love you, Ramona. So blessed to have you part of my life.

Posted by: thedianestory | July 16, 2014

Oh blogger, Where Art Thou?

July 16, 2014

I haven’t meant to drop off the face of the planet…or blogosphere for that matter. But life hit the auto-pilot button, I’ve tried to just keep swimming and my blog got abandoned. I’m working on changing that…daily I’ve made notes for important blog topics. The subjects are screaming to get out of my head and into posts…so stay tuned. The Diane Story will be back soon!!!

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Posted by: thedianestory | May 7, 2014

What I Wore Wednesday

May 7, 2014

For the last few years, every time I saw a “What I Wore Wednesday” post on several blogs, I’ve wanted to do a post on the same topic. However not working, and being sick and in bed, it just didn’t really fit my lifestyle…I mean, I wasn’t going to post me in yoga pants and a baggy shirt. 😉

But now that I’m working I have outfit pics to share! It seriously has been part of the fun of working again – actually getting dressed up and pulling accessories together for the outfit!

So without further ado, I give you my “first official day” outfit:

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I love this dress because it’s purple, super comfy, yet still adorbs (yes, I so totally just said that)! I wore a fun, chunky purple necklace with it, and a petite beaded teal bracelet. I got several compliments on my dress.

Well, my plan was to post more outfit pics, but I’m falling asleep and work in the morning, so I’ve got to post this. Leave me some love and I will post more later!

Posted by: thedianestory | May 5, 2014

Did you know?

May 4, 2014

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Hello blog land! I have really not written much this year, which makes me sad. I hope to improve upon that. But since I’ve been quiet on here, lots has happened in my life. So here is my biggest news!

How is my health:

Not a lot of change. Pelvic pain continues, but mostly manageable with meds. My stomach problems continue with no real answers, however with proper diet and a regimen of medications I’ve gotten to a fairly stable place with it all. This isn’t to say that really bad days still don’t happen, but slowly I’ve managed to do a little more. That being said, I’ve taken a step of faith in another aspect of my life…

A few weeks back while I was on a field trip with my Girl Scout Troop (I lead a Brownie troop) I felt a nudging by the Holy Spirit, a still small voice, whisper to me that perhaps I could try working a few hours somewhere. Maybe I could try to do something that would give me some “normalcy” to my 31 year old life! I decided I’d pray about where I felt I was being led. That was a Sunday.

Fast forward to Thursday of the same week and about 9pm that evening I got a random FB message from my old boss asking me if I wanted to work part time. I got the details from her and told her I’d get back to her.

I needed to check with SSI first before I worked, as I couldn’t risk losing my disability award after fighting for three years to receive it. After meeting with a disability worker, I found out the parameters are set up to protect people like me trying to get back to work. So I indeed could try to work again without it affecting my disability status.

So I told my former boss I’d love the job. She is working for a different company now than with whom I previously was employed. So I needed to interview with the owner (my boss is the GM) as he had final say over hiring. An interview was set up the following Tuesday.
Well the interview went so well. In fact, it felt like the owner and I knew each other for years. He was super kind, and while he didn’t (and couldn’t legally) want to ask too personal of questions, my former boss had let him know about my disability and health challenges and he really wanted to understand a bit more about it. Anyway, I’m an open book and we conversed a bit about my life. Well, he was SO supportive. And decided to hire me on the spot. To top it all off, he told me that my job is flexible and he is more than okay with me calling in sick if I have a bad day. Or he told me if I came into work and got in too much pain after a couple of hours, that he didn’t want me “pushing through” and to just go home. We could pick up the stuff the next day. He said to me “reality is, you’re going to have to call in sick sometimes. I’m hiring you knowing you are ill. And that’s just fine. You are coming here highly recommended. And we are going to support you!”

I literally couldn’t believe what I was hearing. This job could not be more perfect. I’m working as a leasing agent for a property management company. I’m working afternoons (mornings are my worst times) and I will usually work the 3rd-15th of each month; Which is SO perfect as at the end of those two weeks, I will be tired and run down from working every day, but then I have two weeks to rest back up.

I started last week, working two days to train and learn the office a bit. The job is super similar to what I’d been doing before I went out on disability in 2009, so it’s mostly just learning this office’s way of doing things.
My first day at work, the owner and his wife bought me a card and big potted plant welcoming me to the team. I love the job so far and have made it through both days I worked without too much pain, and surprisingly I didn’t even come right home and crash. My energy level has been good.

Please pray for lower pain levels, higher energy levels and that sleep would come to me easily. I struggle to fall asleep, which isn’t good on work nights! I haven’t worked since 2009, so please just pray that my body can do this. It is so good for me – mentally and physically. And other ways too. I’m SO happy to be where I’m at. God is so good.

Thank you to my blog followers, friends and family who have supported me through very dark days. Here’s hoping for brighter ones ahead. I will keep you all posted.

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Posted by: thedianestory | April 18, 2014

Try Me

April 17, 2014

I think most people who know me would say I’m a pretty easy going person. I love people and will bend over backwards to help those people out. But because of this, too many times I’ve been used, slapped in the face and walked all over. And today…I’m done!

I’m done pretending it’s okay to treat me poorly. I’m done getting your leftovers. And I’m done being so low on your priority list that I get no respect. It’s taken too many years of my life to realize that I am worth it. That I have value. And that I’m good enough.

So if you can’t be kind. If I can’t take up any of your precious time, and if being my friend isn’t valuable or important to you…there’s the door!

I’m off to new adventures – to getting my life back, one tiny baby step at a time. And I’m not looking back, and certainly not taking any negatives with me. So, if you can’t be a positive light in my life, then I will see you on the other side. It’s time to do ME for awhile.

Signed,
The Determined One

P.S. A separate post will follow about the awesome supporters I DO have in my circle of love and friendship.

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